About "Hope"

Ok, so this one's a bit dark. But you can't shy away from yourself when you are painting
cause that's like lying to yourself. Once again I hit the canvas this weekend and this just came out at me. Scared the crap out of me at first, then I realized that it's really not a piece about being depressed but rather one of Biding time. waiting through the shit days for what is to come.
Which seems to have been what my life consisted of over the last six months.

So there you go, I like it, I'm lovin painting them, and I've had some great feedback from "Jaded", so I think it's time to attack Canvas #3.

"Hope"

About "Jaded"

So there I am with a blank canvas, bigger than I've worked on in a while.
6 hours I stared at this thing - off and on. It was driving me nuts.
I'd have an idea and then it would melt away, kept happening.
Which sucks if you've ever experienced that.
So I was forced to kill the Canvas with Black spray paint, eventually this painting came out of it.
It's like nothing I've done before and still am not sure what I think of it,
but I think this weekend will be round two. I've got two more of the same size,
so I might as well kill them too. It's pretty liberating going into it and not caring.
In the end maybe I'll love em anyways.

Jaded

About Paintings

I've been trying to capture the almost abstract random quality and life that a tree has.
Each branch has an energy and randomness that reminds me of a pollock painting.
I have yet to capture this in any of the works though the brush marks are energetic.
I am hesitant to repeat his style of working, due to the fact that I'm trying to find my own voice
rather than mimic someone else. Not to mention that everyone whose picked up a paintbrush in the last 50 years has at one time thrown paint at a canvas and called it art. It's a bit overplayed. I've thought though that using his technique may not necessarily be mimicking as I have a subject matter which I am trying to capture (Nature), whereas he believed in making marks only for the sake of pure randomness.

Either way I think I'll be concentrate on expanding my focus on Nature and step back from trees for a bit. Haven't decided yet. I'm still working from two month old photos cause the lighting sucks lately for taking new pictures.

fall wind photo and painting

Goldenleaf tree - Original photo

This is the original photo I took that I used as reference for the painting "Goldenleaf Tree".
Sometimes I like my photos better, it all depends on whether I can
make the painting represent an actual living thing and give it life in my own way.
If I fail, they usually go in the garbage, and I swear alot.